Tales from beyond the Crypt

Series of Magickal & Mystical Workings
28 September 2010 - 6/01/2011

28 September: One’s shadows or demons are reflections on the wall of stupidity.

Al II, 9: Remember all ye that existence is pure joy that all sorrows are but as shadows, they past & are done. But there is that which remains.

I wrote these sentences to remind someone to stay with himself and to stop fighting against the shadows and demons of the family past, triggered by someone who wants to stay the family boss.

29 September: I updated my black suitcase and I was a danger for the city traffic. Achmed, the death terrorist: a nickname for a family terrorist. A fairy tale thriller and a romantic comedy: the television menu for the Flemish audience.

30 September: Cranky & envious looks from the bigots on femininity and a gentle aesthetic surgeon.

Al, II, 58: Yea! Deem not of changes. Ye shall all be as you are & not other. Therefore the kings of the earth shall be kings forever. The slaves shall serve.
There is nobody that shall be cast down or lifted up: all is ever as it was. Ye there are masked my servants. It may be that yonder beggar is a king. A king may choose his garments as he will: there is no certain test: but a beggar can’t hide his poverty.

1 October: A lady in red: laughing men & angry women.A yellow flower, a golden apple & a purple bleu key. O yeah ... I pushed the button. I just learned a new English word which suites me very well: "Bad-girl-ness"



2 October
Sisters in Grace
Love Spells
Bedroom eyes:
O is the gate
O is the gift
Both are very swift
The eagle’s eyes

Music:"Steamy Windows" of Tony Joe White

3 October: The Falcon, the welcoming Host: "Writing Runes in the Sky". The forbidden pleasures of the local scouts and another Lady in Red. Sunshine: the grass grows by itself.

5 October: German Food, a talk about being stabbed in the back & a great walk. Orange power, Lilalilalila, playfulness and a Tao Magic Miracle: A gentle mother, two happy sons & a fallen rat. A helpless tiny little baby & No-thing-ness. An angry asshole fails again.
The miracle is made undone by the two sons a little later: out of ignorance and hate.

7 October: Purple pleasures & Exploding bombs. More denials to be a visible part of my biography.Perverted stories & Unio Mystica. Reflecting Blue: I know what you did last Night!Future lingerie victims, unctuous silence & shamanic transcendence. When the bullet hits its target; the target created the bullet all by itself. The content of my black suitcase is up to date. Flowering in joy.



8 October: Beyond the Last Asshole: Make me smile...
The final point, unchained and a magickal revival. No one dares to play or dance with me.I don’t need black cats and Voodoo dolls.

Music: Ricky Martin with “La Vida Loca”

9 October: Shunyato & Mind Games. The games people play ... who wants to play with me?
Mystery & patience: where the Eagle flies. A wonderful view.

11 October: Kali Visions, parties, a long sunny walk & blood revelations. The dark Mother, the key to deep feminine Magick. Rebirth!

13 October: A new beginning, without the burden of the past. My heartbeat, tuned in the source of life & death. Most people don’t like the darkness of the roots & condemn it. O yeah forever young. It’s thrilling: our souls are forever young & fresh, it is the burden that makes us feel old.
Skeletons, demons & ghosts in the city: Halloween decoration in Genk.

Music: "Schwarze Sonne" (Orchestral Version) of E Nomine

14 October: Facing the Night: "Where ever the magick takes me ... is my home!". Highest Heights & deepest depths. The taste of success or failure. It comes and goes on the road of Life but there is that which remains. The entrance of heaven is in Hell.

Music: "Mysteria" of E Nomine



15 October: Blood & Hecate Moon: "The Dark Mother reveals her secrets". No-thing-ness creates miracles but there are no eyes to see. Relaxing Massage oil & a veggie Salami
Music: "Die Runen von Asgard" of E Nomeni

16 October: The Hibiscus Flower: The "Magick" is launched ... everything can happen now.La Vie en Rose & the exorcist. Celebration with "Ghost riders in the Sky".

17 October: The Whisperer of Secrets: "The Idiot doesn't understand his secrets". Back to the Roots to take a dive in sparkling raw energy,O yeah! Everything can be a glorious adventure:Lady in black & furtive looks.Gathering of nicknames: Barbie, Mega Mindy, stupid cow, wild thing, madame speciale, the artiste, lady in Red, Tarantula … any other suggestions?

18 October: The lion-ness in the Sun and good Music. United in a rapturous Dance "The great Embrace".
An alcohol free pub tour and a magical meeting. Marvellous gatherings with interesting people.

20 October: Playfulness at a birthday party, bright sunshine & every good idea.
Cheers!

21 october: A full moon walk in an almost empty city park. Sparkling aloneness.
The Gates ore open: you can walk in or walk out, as you like or dare.

Osho Time“Each death is an opportunity to awake”
All the riches that you have can be lost, can be stolen, will be lost on the day death will come & will take everything away. When somebody has come to that inner diamond that is one’s owns being, death can’t take it away. Dearth is irrelevant o it. It can’t be stolen, it can’t be lost.
The real death is a very delicate & critical happening, a deep going mystery, also for the ones who stay behind & which ones are open enough. I was 4 years old when my maternal grandfather died in a car accident. It provoked my first spiritual & mystical experience which had a great impact on my whole life. I saw myself dying and I relived my comeback to earth, my birth again and again … at that time I had no idea what was going on & it was very intense.

22 October: The Black Child: "Who dares?". Trust, a quantum jump, casualties in Voodoo & Black Magic. Mysterious networks: "Twins".

Music: "I put the spell on you" CCR

Osho Time:Always remember: that which nourish you is real and that which gives you consolation is very dangerous. Because of this consolation you will not seek the real food. If you start living in dreams you don’t eat the real food, then by & by you will dissipate, disappear, become dry & you will be death.

Maturity has nothing to do with age, growing old is not necessary growing up & one can be very old & very childish. Age & maturity have no necessary link. Maturity comes with meditation. Aging is an ordinary process; everybody ages. Animals age, trees age, people age; that has nothing to do with transformation.

23 October: Magical Red: "Bathing in flowering passion". Lust, Love and Kindness.

Music: "Black Velvet" Alannah Myles

Osho Time:Lust is the same energy as love; the difference is only of direction. Lust moves downwards, love has started the uphill task. Lust is like roots of the tree. Love is like the wings of a bird. But the energy is the same. Energy as such is neutral. Unless you become conscious about it you can not be creative. And the downhill movement is very destructive: you simply disappearing yourself.

Lust is always cunning & love is always compassionate

William Blake: Love suketh only self to please. And bind another to its delight.

25 October: A white poncho and a black skirt.A good coffee, mother & daughter.
Stressless at Home.

26 October: The World in Kattenvenia: A celebration in a dance with the magical autumn sun beams and the Song of my heart. Black reveals … Transformation.

27 October: Atomic Fuchsia, lust for life and a dancing Buddha.
Harmony: "A Snake kisses the heart".
Pink is the colour of happiness and is sometimes seen as light hearted. Brighten pinks are youthful, fun and exciting. While vibrant pinks have the dame energy as red. They are sensual & passionate without being aggressive.

Osho Time: The real man knows no other goal then life itself. Living totally is his goal; living moment to moment, intensely, passionately, hot, that is his goal. Then each becomes so precious, such a gift. And only when you know those gifts can you be thankful to god, can you feel grateful, can prayer arise in you.

29 October: Venus beyond Mars: Hades & Phersephone. Life & Death. Celebration & playfulness. Moment to moment

Osho Time: If you can have just a glimpse of yourself you will know you have never been born & you have never died. Yes, birth & death have been happening around you but not to you. The body was dying, the mind was dying, the body was being born; the mind was being born again, but you have remained eternally the same.

31/10/2010: A good night sleep, participation and a fantastic autumn view.

Osho Time: When you encounter death, when you see it face to face, when you don’t avoid, when you don’t dodge, when you don’t escape, when you don’t create a cloud around you, when you face it, encounter it, the fact of death, suddenly you become aware that death is life, the deeper you move into death, the deeper you move in life because Heraclites says: the opposites meet & mingle, the are one.

Music: George Michael "The first time ever I saw your face"
The blue Oyster Cult "Nosferatu"

Video trailer: "Tales Beyond the Crypt" 1972

2 November: The Sorceress "School of Wild Witches": only the wildest are welcome.
Wonderful Halloween evenings & surprises. Wild floating in the winds of change, o yeah. I see the bad moon rising … but I see no troubles.
Nice warm legwarmers for winter time. The creating light.

Music: CCR "Bad Moon rising"

5 November: Astral Fire in the Eagle’s Flight with wonderful views. Playing with my friend the wind. The Lady in ecru steals the show. Every step you make … I will be watching you.

Music: "When the Lady smiles" Golden Earring

Osho time: To me music & meditation are two aspects of the same phenomenon. And without music meditation lacks something. Without meditation music is simply noise, harmonious, but noise. Without meditation music is an entertainment and without music meditation becomes more and more negative, tends to be death oriented. Hence my insistence that music & meditation should go together. That adds a new dimension to both. To both are enriched by it.

6 November: The sound of silence & a perverted Neptune.

Osho Time: If you know how to enjoy a rose flower, a green tree in your courtyard, the mountains, the river, the stars, the moon, if you know how to enjoy people, you will not so much obsessed with money. The obsession is arising because we have forgotten the language of celebration. Hence money has become the only thing to brag about. Your life is so empty. I will not tell you to renounce money. That has been told to you down the ages: it has not changed you. I am going to tell you something else: celebrate life & the obsession with money disappears automatically. And when it goes on its own accord, it leaves no scratches, it leaves no wounds behind, it leaves no trace behind.

8 November: The Simmer Pot: "Past lives & meetings with people out of these past lives". Who is who?

Osho: The moment the child is born, you think, is the beginning of its life. That is not true. The moment an old man dies, you think, it is the end of his life. That is not. Life is far bigger then birth and death.

10 November: Floating on the waters of Hades. Drinking from the well of forgotten memories.

Osho: Whenever you punish somebody you punishing yourself. Whenever you torture somebody you are torturing yourself because there is nobody else.

Breeding on new public plans on David Bowie & Mick Jagger's : "Dancing in the street"

12 November: "Golden Harlequin" gifts from Hotei, the laughing Buddha. The Old Master, unknown known visions, dirty rings & a fantastic open view
A confrontation with the family past and a fantastic meeting in the present one.

14 November: Who stops the rain? Singing & dancing in the street. A wet celebration. A total "Letting go"!

15/11/2010: Red Lips: the final point, tempting, unchained, change and a magickal revival. The sound of breaking glass. A broken mirror and millions of pieces broken glass all over the bedroom & me in the middle.

Osho: The real question has to be: Am I friendly to people? Do you what friendship is? It is the highest form of love. In love some lust is bound to be there; in friendship all lust disappears. In friendship nothing gross remains, it becomes absolutely subtle.
Create more friends and as your friendship goes deeper into different dimensions, you will find yourself become richer & richer; your own heights will start reaching the Everest. Your own depth will start reaching the pacific.

17/11/2010: Celebration, sharing, ripeness & forever young. It is a wonderful experience to see your own inner naughtiness manifested.

Osho Tome: Celebration is possible only when existence is a constant newness, and existence is always young. When nothing grows old, when nothing really dies, because everything is constantly reborn … it becomes a dance. Then it is an inner music flowering within. You play an instrument or not is not the point, the music is flowing.

18/11/2010: Friendship, the sunny smiling cityscape & karmic bonds.

Osho Time: Friendship is so valuable that wathever the consequences, remain friends even with your wife, even with your husband and allow absolute freedom to each other.

19/11/2010: Silence & Patience.

Osho: Become silent. In your silence all questions will disappear. And the dance will begin, whatever the figure is. Because as far as your being is concerned, it has been eternally there, repressed by you. You are the greatest enemy of yourself. My effort is to turn you into the greatest friend of yourself.

21/11/2010: I succeeded in a huge multi dimensional magical work. Isolation becomes participation & celebration.

Osho Time: Let this sensitivity grow & slowly as you become more & more sensitive, more & more sensuous, you will see more and more beauty around. The deeper your insight, the greater the beauty. And when you see this whole existence as a tremendous dance, a celebration, you are liberated by it. It is celebration that liberates, it is love that liberates, it is beauty that liberates … it is not metaphysics or philosophy.

22/11/2010: No one is there. Whatever happens happens, without any expectations. The silence of the sheep is no silence but cowardice.

Music: "The road to Nowhere" Talking Heads

26/11/2010: Meetings with remarkable people. The first snow & cold and a happy feeling.

Osho: All moments are beautiful, only you have to be receptive & surrendering. All moments are blessings, only you have to be capable of seeing. All moments are meditations. If you accept with deep gratitude, nothing ever goes really wrong.

28/11/2010: Healing hearts, turning in & a wonderful Sunday.

Osho: Love & respect yourself & never compromise for anything. And then you will be surprised how much growth starts happening of its own accord … as if rocks have been removed & the river has started flowing.

Aleister Crowley: Every one interprets everything in terms of his own experience. If you say anything which does not touch a precisely similar spot in another man’s brain, he either misunderstands you or does not understand you at all.

G. I. Gurdjieff: Listen, you have found the conditions in which the desire can become the reality of your being: stay here until you acquire a force in you that nothing can destroy. Then you’ll need to go back into life, and there you will measure yourself constantly with forces which will show you your place.
Self observation brings man to realisation of the necessity self change. And in observing himself a man notices that self observation it self brings about certain changes in his inner processes. He begins to understand that self observation s an instrument of self change, a means of awakening.

J. Krishnamurti: Hitler, Mussolini were only the primary spokesmen for the attitude of domination& craving for power that are in the heart of almost every one until the source is cleared, there will always be confusion & hate, wars & class antagonisms.

29/11/2010:
The science of Idiotism according to G. I. Gurdieff. Cheers!
1. The ordinary idiot
2. The super idiot
3. the arch idiot
4. The hopeless idiot
5. the compassionate idiot
6. The squirming idiot
7. The square idiot
8. the round idiot
9. the zig zag idiot
10. the enlightened idiot
11. the doubting idiot
12. the swaggering idiot
13. the born idiot
14. the patented idiot
15. the psychopathic idiot
16. the polyhedral idiot
17 – 21: Idiots constituted a spiritual hierarchy reflecting progressive gradations of objective reason. Idiot 18 is the highest development which a human being could reach but in order to attain it he had first voluntary to descend again from 17 to the ordinary idiot. Idiots 19 – 21 were reserved for the sons of god. 21 is the unique idiot, god himself.

Osho: An idiot is a person who is trying to find joy where joy doesn’t exist at all, who is trying to search for something which he never lost in the first place. The enlightened person is one who has looked into his being before searching for anything anywhere else. It is better to look in your own house. He has looked in & has found it there, now his search has disappeared.
The science of Idiots according G. I Gurdjieff: he used to make a toast every night for all kinds of idiots in the world. He had 26 categories of idiots. I don’t know to which you belong but you must belong to some category or other.

Gurdjieff introduced his toast to the idiots in 1922 and from 1940 gave it on increasing emphasis. Although not divesting “Idiots” of it’s pejorative sense. He re-invested ot with the meaning of individuality from the Greek root meaning “I make my own”.
Though idiocy was universal, god himself called the unique Idiot a subsidiary differentiation afforded a human typology at once poetic and profound; Each pupil, relying simply on intuition, was initially required to choose his own idiot from among the first 12. Although Idiots 1 – 16 might seen to occupy a plateau of being only differentiate behaviourally are hints of a desirable evolution to the proximate type.

Music:
The idiot song
Monty python: how sweet to be an idiot
American Idiot



1/12/2010: Snow & magical Views

Osho: Once you know the inner riches, then there is nothing which is comparable from this outside world. Once you know the inner bliss, then enjoyment is foolish, stupid. It just falls down once you know the inner ecstasy. Then all that is known as happiness, joy is nothing but deception. But not before. Unless you have known the inner happiness you cannot say that, and if you say then you will be in great deception.

G. I. Gurdjieff: Without self knowledge, without understanding the working & functions of his machine, man cannot be free, he cannot govern himself & he will always remains a slave.

Aleister Crowley: Indubitably, magic is one of the subtlest & most difficult of the sciences & arts. There is more opportunity for error of comprehension, judgement & practice than in any other branch of physics.

The joy of life consists with exercise of one’s energies, continual growth, constant chance, the enjoyment of every new experience. To stop means simply to die. The eternal mistake of mankind is to set up an attainable ideal.

3/12/2010: Snow white Friday, going with the flow in deep gratitude for all happenings

Aleister Crowley: The essence of independence has been to think & act according to standards from within, not without.

People think that talking is a sign of thinking. It isn’t, for the most part on the contrary, it is a mechanical dodge of the body to relieve oneself of the strain of thinking just as exercising the muscles helps the body to become temporarily unconscious of its weight, its pain , its weariness & the foreknowledge of its doom.

5/12/2010: Zorba the Buddha, Craziness and Laughter is Silence.

Aleister Crowley: Modern morality & manners suppress all natural instincts. – keep people ignorant of the facts of nature and make them fighting drunk on bogey tales.

6/12/2010: A good belly laugh without a reason. Always a rebel.
Drinking a good chilled Chilean Chardonnay to celebrate the end of an important closing chapter. A toast on & a farewell to all the idiots, who stay behind & choose for the sea of confusion & illusions. It was a very rewarding game to play. Game over!

G. I. Gurdjieff: A man will renounce any pleasure you like but he will not give up his suffering.

Osho: Every opportunity in life for raising your intelligence, your consciousness. Ordinarily what we are doing is using every opportunity to create a hell for ourselves. Only you suffer and because of your suffering, you make others suffer. And when so many people are living together & if they all create suffering for each other, it goes on multiplying. That is how the whole world has become a hell. It can be instantly changed. Just the basic thing has to be understood, that without intelligence there is no heaven.

7/12/2010: Deep harmony in silence, inner strength. What happen, happens. Yeah, it’s written in the wind. The Chardonnay tastes damn good. Sweet victory.

Gurdjieff: Laughter relieves us of superfluous energy which, if remained unused, might become negative, that is poison. Laughter is the antidote.
Remember you come here having already understood the necessity of struggling with yourself, only with yourself. Therefore thank everyone who gives you the opportunity.

8/12/2010: Intensity, flowering in my own source, without guides or guide maps. Just a wonderful feeling.

Osho: Happiness is your nature. Unhappiness is something nurtured, you have learned it. Every credit goes to you for all misery, but for happiness you cannot have any credit. It is natural. You are born happy.

Wisdom is a very relaxed state of being. Wisdom is not knowledge, not information; wisdom is your inner being awake, alert, watchful, witnessing, full of light.

9/12/2010: The lioness doesn’t sleep … and she isn’t one of the sheep.

Aleister Crowley: To read a newspaper is to refrain from reading something worthwhile. The first discipline of education must therefore be to refuse resolutely to feed the mind with canned chatter.

The most delicious sensation of all is the rebirth of healthy human love. Spring coming back to earth.

10/12/2010: Silent witness in awareness

Osho: Bliss is true happiness. What you call happiness is just misery in disguise. What you call happiness is nothing but entertainment, pleasure. It is momentary, it can not be true. Truth has to have one quality and the quality is of eternity. If something is true it is eternal, if it is untrue it is momentary. True happiness is found only when the mind completely ceases functioning. It does not come from the outside. It wells up within, your own being, it starts overflowing you. You become luminous. You become a fountain of bliss.

11/12/2010: Drops of Summer Wine ... brewed by my inner being.
Music: "Summerwine" Lee Hazlewood & Nancy Sinatra.

Turning in & one with Osho on his birthday. Great insights thanks Osho!
I detected another casualty, may he rest in peace. And the Greek connection shows up again: "Dirty … dirty old man" Cheers!

12/12/2010:A naughty idea for my comedy keeper, calves, more space and on the road again. I took up the challenge … but it will be done my way. The sent-mentalist will know it!

Aleister Crowley: Falsehood is invariable the child of fear in one form or another.

Buddha: The ignorant man is an ox. He grows in size, not in wisdom.

13/12/2010: Music: The Doors "Riders on the Storm"

14/12/2010: Another white carpet. A practical joke for a runaway coward. Conscious & Innocence.

J. Krishnamurti: Society is a process of recognition; one is recognized as a saint, as a writer, as a good man, as a bad man, as a capitalist, a communist, or whatever you like. In breaking away from all that, the mind is completely alone not lonely. It is like no longer influenced by society, it is completely dissociated from all recognition; therefore it is capable of being alone.

15/12/2010: Past, present and futures lifes. The art of Changing. Innocence. The practical joke with the Greek bible already worked … Cheers to the idiots! It is great to be on the road again.

Osho: At the moment of death all your knowledge of the world will be lost into thin air. Only one thing will go with you, and that one thing is constantly ignored; that is your self knowledge, your self realisation, this is the only ignorance.

16/12/2010: An invitation to dance … Metallica & symphonic orchestra "Devil’s Dance".
Onions, Shiva’s Dance, sharing. Gone with the wind. Another white carpet after the rain.

Rumi: This aloneness is worth more then a thousand lives. This freedom is worth more than all the lands on earth. To be one with the truth for just a moment is worth more then the world and life itself.

17/12/2010: Shadows & a fantastic white cityscape

Osho: Each person comes to the world with a specific destiny he has to fulfil, some message has to be delivered, some work has to be completed, you are not here accidentally, you are here meaningfully. There is a purpose behind you. The whole intends to do something through you.

18/12/2010: Creativity in my own source. Nectar from the beloved & an Angel’s kiss in winter.

J. Krishnamurti: First of all, to understand truth you must stand alone, entirely and wholly alone, no master, no teacher, no guru, no system, no self discipline will ever lift you the veil which conceals wisdom. Wisdom is the understanding of enduring values & the living of those values. No one can lead you to wisdom.

19/12/2010: New visions back grounded with lots of snow. And it is still snowing. Going Loco in the snow & try to get a bus. Creativity in the snow: singing and dancing.

Meher Baba: Even the slightest misuse of occult power has severe reaction & creates a binding for the soul. Sometimes it may retard the progress of the aspirant & may even lead to a considerable set back: and apart from the spiritual ruin which the novice may invite upon himself, through indiscrete use of occult power, he is bound to be a source of incalculable harm to others, against whom he has succeeded in having a formidable advantage.

Osho: Nothing can be done about the past, but much can be done about the future. And to change the future is to change all. If you start changing your ways of life, your ways of awareness, if you start understanding the laws of life … this is one of the fundamental laws of karma, whatever you will do you have to reap

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20/12/2010:

Before I died in the crypt, this song represented my life. I was treaded like a shadow on the wall. It was the gate to something very special: an embrace with eternity.
Music: "Shadows on the Wall" Mike Olfield.

21/12/2010: After the embrace with eternity one discovers that the soul is immortal and forever young.
Music: Alphaville "Forever young"

22/12/2010:

Gurdjeff: The being of two people can differ from one another more then the being of a mineral and of an animal. This is exactly what people do not understand. And they do not understand that knowledge depends on being. Not only do they not understand this latter but they do not wish to understand it

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24/12/2010: Waking the Death, 26 cm of fresh white snow, no busses and a lot of cars in trouble.

In invitation to celebration from Osho: Existence is celebrating, it is a celebration. It is already dancing, in every leaf, in every stream, in every rock & in every star … it is always dancing. And you are invited. Otherwise you would not have been here.

26/12/2010:

Buddha: An untroubled mind, no longer seeking to consider what is right & what is wrong, a mind beyond judgements watches & understands.

28/12/2010: Kings and Emperors, the star of Bethlehem, rune power & a little baby girl.

Osho: Walk in the marketplace like a Buddha, live on the world. The world is very enriching, because relationship mirrors. All relationships are mirror like. You see your face in the mirror of the other being. It is very difficult to see your own face directly. You will need the other, the mirror to see your own face. And where can you find a better mirror the eyes of the other.

30/12/2010: Adventure in new possibilities, unfit purple flowers, two gone with the wind apes and a very warm feeling.

Gurdjieff: Faith can not be given to man. Faith arises in a man and increases in its actions in him not as the result of automatic learning, that is, not from any automatic ascertainment of height, breadth, thickness, form & weight or taste but from understanding. Understanding is the essence obtained form information intentionally learned & from all kind of experiences personally experienced.

1/01/2011: An End & a new Beginning: pleasure and excitement in the flow.

J. Krishnamurti: We seek happiness through things, through relationship, through thoughts, ideas. So things, relationship & ideas become all important & not happiness. When we seek happiness through something, then the thing becomes of greater value than happiness.

2/01/2011: Control and morality, many rewards from the Orient. Too many have paid the ferryman & thought they were a step ahead. But they all failed; Point Finale.
Music: Chris de Burgh "Don’t pay the ferry man"

3/01/2011: No more … just floating on the river of life & spontaneous happenings.

J. Krishnamurti: The inward desire for security expresses itself outwardly through exclusion & violence, as long as it process is not fully understood there can be no love. Love is not another refuge in the search for security. The desire for security must wholly cease for love to be.

4/01/2011: Great inner Joy in aloneness & silence. Totally at home.

J. Krishnamurti: Using another as a means of satisfaction & security is not love. Love is never security; love is a state in which there is no desire to be secure: it is a state of vulnerability; it is a state in which exclusiveness, enmity & gate are impossible.

6/01/2011: Inner Guidance & great changes. Truth is your own experience, your own vision. Rain & the green green grass of Genk.

Austin Osman Spare: And remember, you shall suffer all things and again suffer: until you love sufficient sufferance to accept all things.